Once upon a time I was not taking care of myself. I ate food that was bad for me, I was not exercising, and I was not making sure I got good alone time to relax and unwind. Ultimately my body told me to knock it off and that it wasn’t going to let me do that anymore. I found myself in the hospital with terrible side pain which was likely related to my liver/gall bladder and digestive system. That was in 2010, roughly 6 years ago. Today I am healthier than I have ever been, I run, do mild exercises to build muscle, I do Yoga, I am vegetarian, heading towards a vegan diet now, mostly gluten free, and I listen to my body more than ever. I also pay attention to my feelings and thoughts when they pass by, and I don’t hold things in when something bothers me. I meditate here and there but ultimately try to be in a meditative state at all times which to me is paying attention to everything around me, and being present in the moment.
Old patterns
I was brought up taught to work hard and provide for my family, not to complain too much, and to fit inside a box which was formed to the society in which I lived. Over the past several years I have realized this was not the key to a happy successful life. I have been good at what I do for a living but I am no longer interested in it anymore. There is no substance to it and I am not passionate about it. I am in the process of changing that, but it is another big change that is hard for me. Holding on to those old thought patterns and programs built up by the ego for safety is no longer serving me. I am learning to let go of the ego(mind) and listen to my heart and soul. My next post will likely be about my new passion in life(PBD). Stay tuned! 
I am a God
Oh how dare I! I know this will raise a few eyebrows, but there is nothing wrong with thinking highly of yourself. You are the most important thing in your world. You should worship yourself and take care of your temple. As I stated in my last post(Universal Perfection) we all have a piece of God within us. We are divine and worthy of creating the life we desire. So that is what I have set out to do. I am creating the life I was meant to create before I was even born. I am listening to the Universe in all its glory and honoring my ability to create a wonderful and meaningful existence. I can do anything my heart is set to! And everything that has happened from the beginning of time to now has helped me get to this point. I am grateful for everything that has happened to me whether it was good or bad. All of it was good in my perspective. I was a Christian for exactly five years. I knew the time I became one and the time I left that belief system. More on that in a future post… I have lost friends because of my change in belief.
It is not you, it is them
Time for another mantra.. “Don’t let your perception of yourself be dependant on those around you”. I don’t have to please anyone because they disagree with me. I don’t have to believe what someone says just because they have a degree. I don’t have to follow someone just because they are popular or have power. I question everything these days, and the more I question the more I find out that things have gone awry. Not that this is bad, it is just that I choose not to go down that path and I seek answers in different ways. I follow my heart and intuition more these days. Not as much as I would like. I still have feelings that I wish I could shake but it will all get better over time. If someone is being negative towards me all I have to do is walk away. Understanding that they may be going through a tough time and there is a reason they are being a jerk is enough for me to love them no matter what they say. This is definitely easier said than done, but having empathy for someone is a form of love. They have a past that has defined them. They have a past that has programmed them to be who they are today. You are not going to change them. They have to come to change inside themselves if they decide to listen. All you can do is love them.
Before them it must be you
In order to truly love someone and accept everything about them you must be willing to love yourself first. If your heart is empty it can not give out love to others. You must fill your heart full of love and sustain that love prior to giving your love to someone else. Otherwise you will destroy yourself. This is my perspective as this has happened to me. I was once destroyed and I had to reclaim my love for myself so I could once again love unconditionally. And this is still a work in progress by the way..
Ultimately I have learned to love myself so that I can live a happy and meaningful life. I have seen that when I do love myself I am now attracting people into my life that resonate with me. There is a popular mantra out there these days that goes like this: “Your vibe attracts your tribe”. Basically whatever you put out into the Universe, the Universe will send back to you in some way or another. So I say take care of yourself and the Universe will take care of you.
Live better, be happy, and love all that is!
Namaste!
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